goodbyes :(

I am excited to see my family but I'm not excited to be leaving all these girls behind. They have became my family for the past 30 days. They have been the ones that I look forward to talking to, or seeing that day. They have been my life for the past 30 days. We had our going away party today! We got them all out of the bar very easily, that was one of our concerns. that is such a God thing. And we had 26 girls here! 26, CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?! We did dessert, gave out goodie bags, and took lots of pictures. This has been the hardest good bye EVER. Not knowing if you are going to see them again, them saying "I hope you dont forget me" or saying "I WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN". What am I suppose to say? "I dont know if Ill be back", "I WONT FORGET YOU". Are they really going to believe that I wont forget them, are they going to remember me IF I come back? Everyone left after a few tears were shead. Then a little while later 3 of the other girls came back. This time with bags. We didnt know anything about this. They brought us a shirt that has a heart and says "I AM THAI, I LOVE YOU" or something like that. They also brought us a sheer shirt that one of them hand made it. Its beautiful. Me and Kalyn got back from doing our last evening outreach and we walked in to 16 girls from the house in our room. They didnt know we were actually leaving in the morning. They wanted to sit here while we packed. We gave them all the things that we didnt want and they were all thankful. we had to once again say goodbye. goodbye, again? really this word is starting to be my least favorite one. I dont know how tomorrow is going to be, or how next week is going to be. I dont know how I'm going to react to things now. I dont know how I am going to even talk about Thailand.

this has been a life changing trip. I'm so glad I got this opportunity. I just hope that I will get to come back, and see these wonderful girls again.


thanks everyone for the support and prayers. means alot <3

Savannah